I feel that, the gap between us is getting further.
I tried my best to keep up my pace with him,
But i failed.
He always move faster than i.
For the first time in these few months,
I'm scared.

Kinda down when i hear from his mouth
"im feel bit tired of worrying ur money matters le.."
I don't want that to be the reason that sets us apart.
I keep trying, trying to work off my debts,
probably my effort wasn't enough.

I couldn't help but start wondering,
am I choosing the right path?
Things seems so clear few months back when we set our dream,
But it's blurry as the weather recently.

My only moto now is,
To work as hard as i can ,
and give you the life that you wanted most.

Missed you Bei...
Sorry cos i can't give you the things you wanted.
Sorry cos i can't buy things for you.
Sorry cos i can't go travel together with you.

Sorry bei, for the misunderstandings , and for putting u through such a situation.

Guess an idle mind is really a devil's workshop.

Love you...

Sadness overwhelmed me

He promised to msg me, but he didn't.
I'm sitting here alone in my room , thinking about what i have been through recently.
I feel abandoned, abandoned by the world.
I don't like this feeling, I really don't like this, it's eating me up from the inside...

I missed him a lot, but right now i just don't feel that he misses me that much.

I'm sad and down, needed someone to accompany me, but his friend somewhat seems more important than me....

Tell me what to do.... I really don't know how

BeiBei,

Thank you for the lunch you made for me yesterday , Its really very very delicious.

Felt so warm, thank you for that,

Hope that i have the chance to eat that everyday =)

Be my last

I was young,
and naive,
I thought that things centers around me,
I thought that love was an easy thing,
But i was wrong,
All these years ,
I have been searching,
Searching for that special someone that is destined ,
Destined for me to be with.
I'm tired of searching,
Tired of getting hurt.
But now I think that I have found the one,
The right one for me,
So will you,
Be my last ?
Be my last,
I hope that you could, be my last.

Bei : I wish that you will be the last one. I think i found the right one

Me: Me too, hope that you're my last.

迷惘...

Wanted to write something for you , but nothing appears in my mind except for the three words :



I LOVE YOU!!

Pray that things are going fine for my bei..... Miss you much, hope you are fine there, was getting kinda worried...

My heart ached when i heard you said you were crying , and is preparing to break up with him. Hope that you both are doing alright....

終於把悶氣給嘔出來, 舒服多了.

一直嘗試把自己搞得很忙, 希望能藉此不那麼想你,
可是還是一樣.
也許是我太依戀你了吧, 這段日子總習慣有你在身邊,

人總會沉浸在當前的幸福當中,
忘了預習
當有一天自己一個人時應該如何.

才發現原來平時的我是多麼的幸福.

想你, 戀你, 你可否感覺到 ?
每次電話响起時, 總希望電話那頭是你.

四月天, 梅雨厭厭, 在窗前.
淋濕的燕, 在屋簷.
四月天, 總是帶伞的思念,
我想見, 你的臉.
念你的時光無限寬廣.

午夜前的十分鐘, 天顯得十分空
寂寞彷彿夜車偷偷出發, 尋找你的溫柔我的依靠
眉頭心頭, 世界盡頭,
想你的旅程反覆不休,
只要我的終站你的臂彎 ,
不到終點, 不能回頭 .

在整整一生都無法捉摸的幸福裡
無論是怎樣的誘餌　怎樣的幻象
我都願意相信　
願意為你走向那滿溢著淚水與幸福的海洋

我的心在波濤之間遊走
在等待與回顧之間遊走
在天堂與地獄之間

明 知 道 總 有 一 日
所 有 的 悲 歡 都 將 離 我 而 去
我 仍 然 竭 力 地 搜 集 　 搜 集 那 些
美 麗 的, 糾 纏 著 的
值 得 為 他 活 了 一 次 的 記 憶 . . . . . .

下雨了...

突然好想好想你.
好想抱著你一起睡, 好想念你的味道, 你的體溫.

久久無法入眠, 只因為想你嗎?
抑或是其他的原因?

貝,
我好愛好愛你,
愛到無可自拔了.

早上一起去上班的感觉真好 =）

从早上出街到晚上， 好累。。。。

今天去看了 bob and marley, 好好看， 好感动

好热的天气， 弄得我的人也有点热热的。

躺在他身邊看康熙來了, 覺得很幸福. 也許他不知道, 我覺得好溫暖, 差點睡著了.

終於下雨了,
可是到家又沒水, 只好去別人家冲涼嚕.

可愛的貝,
你要早點好起來哦

夜, 無眠.
昨天, 翻來覆去, 輾轉無法入睡.
也許是太想念你了吧,

有時, 習慣真的是很可怕的東西.

很高興你喜歡我煲的湯,看著你貪婪地喝湯的表情我就覺得好幸福.

對不起我昨天對你撒了個謊. 也許外表看起來成熟的我, 骨子裡其實只是個五歲想得到你的注意力的小孩. 我承認這是我的缺點, 原諒我好嗎 ?

原本你告訴我你的男友預定要在 30 號才來, 可是今天你有告訴我他 24 號就來了. 心情酸酸的, 有點沉重 , 不知應該給你什麼回應才好. 應該替你高興, 畢竟你倆這樣久沒見面了, 可是心里還是怪怪的. 也許是我自私心在做祟吧 , 我還是無法以豁達的心情來接受這一點.... 唉....

祝你早日康復.



想給你聽我的心跳 , 想你知道我睡的不好 ,
喝水想著你　,
搭車想著你　,
闔眼閉眼間 , 出現的全是你 ,
讀書想著你　,
聽歌想著你　,
大地和藍天 , 出現的全是你 ,
不想難為你 , 決定告訴你 .... 對不起 ....
對不起 , 我愛你 .

Went for roti bakar, quite nice except for the strawberry jam and cheese combo, kinda weird... =__="

Dropped me at prangin after dota, can see that he is feeling not well. Hope he gets well soon ^^

Missed you bei , wanted to come find you but mum was back late, so i didnt go, hopefully i can compensate tomorrow =)

Muacks

Got kidnapped by Bei today... Hehe


Went for a movie, the watchmen, kinda boring.
The most romantic thing is during the movie, he whispered in my ear, " I love you bei... " Awww, so so so sweet *^^*

Went for dota after that , boy i just love the smile on his face when he pawned the AI...

Hope you get well soon,

Fried some prawn crackers today, but accidentally spilled the hot oil over my leg, so pain... Stupid me... ><

Went to find bei, we went to dota and sat at McD after that.
Bei suddenly looked so down, wish i can do something to cheer him up.
If i only had one wish, my wish would be that bei will be happy always. I want bei to be happy everyday, guess that's whats attracts me to bei =)

Really miss bei's hug so much...


Counting stars,
The shadow in mind grew clear,
Wish for another chance,
When we meet,
Nothing can stop me from holding you tight,
Telling you the never ending story from my heart.

Weee finally dota with bei till 5 am.. lol Tiring but i enjoyed every bit of it.

Went dim sum with bei, i can see bei is really tired but he still try hard to keep himself awake, felt so guilty.Thank you bei for all the things you've done for me ^^

Bei looks so handsome in formal :P

I wanted to dota with bei all nite too, but seeing bei so tired and he got things to do the next morning, so i decided to send him back early.

Feel kinda lost watching him going in his house, feel like rushing up and hugging him, asking him not to leave so fast.... But , work always has its priority... Stayed for a few minutes more and i decided to head home...

Pray that bleach and OnePiece won't occupy too much of space in bei's mind till he forgets me XD

Hehe, today is the first time I'm having KOREAN food with bei, so happie~~ ^ ^

Dota for quite long today, suddenly realise that , bei look very attractive when he is concentrating on playing game... hehe *^^*

Wish the day didn't end so fast...

Beibei i love you, and thank you for all the things you've done for me today , muacks muacks

So tired today, the first movie is better than the second movie we watched... :P

Wee, finally we got company of our own.. .

Beibei i love you so much, i just want to be able to hold u a little bit longer, kiss you a little bit longer, then I'm the happiest man in the world ^ ^




沒有你的深夜不能入睡,
沒有你我是誰都無所謂,
沒有你看不見夜色的美,
沒有你的晚餐怎麼嚼都無味,
沒有你叫我寶貝我連哭都不配,
沒有你誰顯得我珍貴?

Feel so weird listening to you talking to your bf, perhaps I'm just jealous. Gosh , this feeling is so so weird... lol... Still feel happy to be able to sleep together v u ... Hehe, altho it's kinda hot and u cant hug me to sleep, but I'm still happy that i can be with u . Muacks Muacks .

Sorry for letting you see the bite on me, sorry for making you feel the way you feel .

Slept for 3 hours today, but i don't feel like sleeping at all, perhaps it has become a habit in the past few days that you are sleeping by my side.

I want to be able to whisper good night to you ,
I want to be able to hold you tight,
I want to be able to see you when i open my eyes,
I want.... I want... I want....

Went to esplanade with friends,

Had fruits, all i think is you
How i wish you were here, a windy night, wish you are by my side right here, right now. I'm felt so cold...

Dare not sms you when i reach home, for i fear that i will wake you up in the middle of the night. I miss you very much, even when i'm watching my drama, all i think about is you...

突然好想好想你.
又再胡思亂想了, 不知你跟他在做什麼?

心是亂的, 照片是虛幻的, 一切都是假的, 只有手中殘留著他的味道的衣服是真的.

反覆不能入眠, 原來思念有時候是那麼地讓人無所適從.

如果, 假如真的有如果.....

BaoBei, i really really miss you a lot. Can't stop thinking of you.

在不點燈的房間裡,
孤單一人, 任時間流逝;
擁抱那一天的回憶, 你的味道.
撥電話的手指, 彷彿還有記憶,
靜靜地在播號盤上描繪著.

無止尽的思念, 就快要把我淹没。
天空, 也掉下了眼淚.

一週月快樂, 情人節快樂.

遠方的你, 可知道愛你的我可有多想你 ?

明天他就要去外坡見他的男朋友了.

手, 幫他收拾行李, 心, 卻是沉重的.

平常就不擅于用文字表達自己情緒的人, 此刻更是詞窮.
只能靜靜地看著他的雙眼, 貪婪地汲取他的味道, 享受兩人相處的時刻.

也許是我的錯覺吧, 總覺得他眼角隱隱泛著淚光, 依依不捨之心更盛了.
好想哭, 可是卻不想讓他更難過, 強顏歡笑, 原本就是我的拿手好戲, 可是此刻做起來卻好艱難,
好怕我在他面前崩潰.

寶貝, 我好愛好愛你 !

相思已是不曾閑, 又哪得功夫咒你 ?

後天, 他就要啟程去外坡了, 好舍不得 , 總覺得心里酸溜溜的.

想念變成一條線, 在時間裡面蔓延, 長得可以把世界切成兩個面


許久沒有這種感覺了. 抱著他的時候, 總覺得心里暖暖的. 看著他熟睡的樣子, 怎樣也壓抑不了心中那股幸福的感覺.


多麼捨不得就此放開擁抱他的雙手

還沒分開已開始想念, 未來的六天我將如何過 ?

I dont care what the future brings. What matters to me now is, You're with me, right here... and right now.....